The Beginning

As a child I had two goals for what I wanted to do "when I grew up". Some of my friends had dreams of being a Veterinarian or Doctor, others wanted to be a fire fighter or astronaut where as I myself wanted to be a teacher AND a Playboy cover model. Mind you I had decided this at the age of 10. Im not even sure that at such a young age I even fully knew what Playboy magazine was!

What I do know is that for as far back as I can remember I was always very aware of sexuality and probably had thoughts that most little girls wouldn't even be able to conjure up in their naive under developed young little brains. I was fascinated with my mother's "Graphic Novels" that she collected and hide away in her closet which were full of women illustrated wearing thigh high latex looking boots and body suits made of rubber with chains and metal buckles that supported extremely large breasts in these outfits. These graphic novels were fantasy stories of women empowerment and domination but I didnt pick up on that, I just knew I was facinated by these women and something about them excited me a lot (also in a way I did not yet understand).

In my Junior High days I grew up in a very "Melrose Place" style apartment building in Encino California. Above our little two bedroom apartment lived the mother of a very famous "teen heart throb" that had already stared in huge movies like The Goonies, The Lost Boys, ect. (I'll let you figure that one out no need to name names). We also became "family friends" with another drop dead gorgeous woman in the building that had a little girl that became childhood friends with my younger sister. I was convinced her mom had to be a stripper but my mother assured me she worked in an office just like she did. When I turned 16 she finally admitted that our neighbor was not a stripper however she was indeed a very well known "Porn Star". I also found out the my "uncle" who I had grown up with thinking he was just a normal actor was actually a very well known porn star as well. When I say well known Im not just referring to internet or low budget porn but in fact Hall of fame, AVN award, top payed, "household" name porn stars.

As a result the mixture of all this as my surroundings for most of my "development years" lead me down the path that I am currently on today as a young adult. I decided against wanting to be in Playboy as I got older and instead can now be found on various "alternative" adult sites where I am stripping down bare naked in more creative and fun settings. I am also now a full-time "Dominatrix". My typical outfit for "work" resembles the ones I saw those women wearing in the graphic novels that I was so fascinated with. Go figure! I now understand what I had been looking at as a child and why it made me feel those feelings of excitement that I just simply couldnt process yet at that age. And so the journey of kink begins...